Friday, June 19, 2015
Wednesday, June 10, 2015
The Miracle of Motherhood
by Cindy Hester
The sound of the garbage
truck's air brakes mingled with the noise of the driver yelling out directions
woke me from a restless sleep. The previous night's events came flooding
back as I clumsily
rolled out of bed. The nausea and cramping had grown increasingly
worse, and I knew I had to call my doctor.
Little was I to know that within four short hours I would begin a life-altering
journey that would include a
roller coaster of ups and downs, twists, and turns providing the most
exhilarating ride of my life.
On July 22, 1980 at the
ripe old age of nineteen I became a mother for the first time. I remember
holding my breath until I heard my baby's cry. Nurses called out measurements
and weight as I lay there anxiously waiting. Then came the moment I will never
forget. My nurse walked over with this tiny bundle of humanity. Her kind
eyes smiled as she said, "Meet your daughter." She laid her on my
chest, placing her soft, sweet face next to mine. Immediately her crying hushed
as she gently pressed her tiny mouth against my cheek. It was in that moment
that an overwhelming tsunami of love flooded my heart.
God
blessed me with this incredible adventure twice more with the birth of my sons.
Amazingly, that intense, loving bond forged when holding each one was unique,
as if experiencing it again for the first time. In fact, having children of my
own gave me an understanding of just how deeply my mother and father loved me.
On an even grander scale, I gained an appreciation for the unfathomable love
our Heavenly Father holds for each of us as His children.
As time progressed, life took a completely
different turn from the fairy tale I had imagined as a young bride. After
seventeen years of marriage I suddenly found myself as a single mom to my
teenage daughter and two pre-teen sons. I stumbled and fumbled my way through
making numerous mistakes along the way. I had no choice but to get back up, shake
the dust off, and try again. It was during this period of motherhood that God began
working in my heart teaching me that I must depend on Him. On days when even my
best efforts were futile, He reminded me that He did not create me to exist
depending on my strength and wisdom, but on His.
Three years later I married the man who has
stood by my side through thick and thin. (I mean literally, thick and thin...or
maybe I should say thin, then thick?!) On October 23, 1999 at the ripe old age
of thirty-eight I became a step-mom. My husband and I moved into a three
bedroom apartment with three teenage boys in one room. The youngest daughter had
a room to herself, with the exception of the weekends her step-sister came home
from college.
I could not have asked for two children to
welcome me any better than my step-son and step-daughter, and thankfully, my
children ultimately loved and respected my husband. Even still, we were not the
Cleaver family, nor were we the Brady Bunch. There were deep struggles. There
were days I wondered if that incredible, natural bond of love making us a
“family” would ever develop.
I can’t name a specific date it happened. I
think it was the result of witnessing those milestone moments that happen over
time. Moments such as hearing their names called at graduation, or walking away
to leave one at college with tears streaming down her face. Possibly it was watching
another leave for boot camp, or watching each of the boys stand tall and
handsome anxiously awaiting his bride’s appearance. It could have been seeing
one step off of the hospital elevator proudly rolling a bassinette carrying his
first-born son, or seeing pictures of another holding his daughter for the
first time with tears in his eyes. It could have been the result of watching
another struggle to find her identity in this big old cruel world asking God to
protect her and to show her the way. It was in these moments that overwhelming,
inexplicable tsunami of love flooded my heart washing away any trace of
distinction between “yours” and “mine” leaving only “ours.” That, my friends,
is what I call God’s miracle of motherhood.
How
can I ever thank You, Lord, for allowing me the opportunity to love and to be
loved as a Mom. Lord, I know I have failed You and them in so many ways. I am
so grateful that where my failures could have been fatal, You stepped in with
Your love and grace. I thank You for my sweet Momma and for all she has been to
me. Thank You for her strength and devotion in never giving up on me. Help me
to show that same love to my children and grandchildren. Bless each mother on
this Mother’s Day. Bless each child who may not have had the privilege of a
loving mother in his or her life, and be with each person whose mother is no
longer here on this earth. Thank You for the promise that You will never leave
us or forsake us. I love You Lord. In Christ’s name I pray, Amen.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
Content With Who You Are
by Cindy Hester Photo by Elizabeth Tsung on Unsplash Grab a cup of coffee, and let’s talk. I have to be honest, my heart is...
-
by Cindy Hester My Grandfather, Bro. C. L. Moore, after Baptizing Three New Members of Bethel Baptist Church, Bold Springs...
-
I am always amazed at how our brains work. Take memory for example. I can see, hear, smell or experience something that immediately links m...
-
"The Lord will guide you always; H e will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will ...